I could spend hours listing every little detail about our failed relationship, why it was a sinking ship.
I’ve done it before, funny thing is I usually get about half way through that door shaking with anger, feeling stupid for staying as long as I did.
You know the story about how you can put a frog in water and it will stay as the temperature slowly climbs and the frog doesn’t realizs the danger until it’s outta time?
I feel like that was a good analogy for you and me.
Except for one thing,
I could feel the heat,
Of your deceit,
And still I’d cling
To the illusion and confusion
call it intuition and I ignored it.
Even though what you were doing,
I abhorred it.
I feel I owe us both an apology. The warning signs were there from the beginning and I lacked the self confidence to assert my boundaries
I allowed the cycle to continue. Before we got married, when you cheated, there were obviously warning signs that went unheeded.
I made the choice to believe your shaky narrative
And my ignore intuition in its mission. callously disregarding the message that you had no respect for me.
And when I started to listen to the whispers of my soul, that place that can reach where lies won’t go, when I started to synch up with me and get in touch with my divinity…when I allowed myself to see, to feel, to understand that my passion and pain was real. I started to heal. I began to let go, and trust my soul.